I know all of us as bloggers and even as people have been in a position where we compare ourselves to others. I have had my challenges with this as a blogger, but this is getting easier as I am becoming more aware of the purpose of my blog and what it means to me.
My blog is very personal to me. I'm not saying other blogs are not, but I feel like my connection to my blog goes beyond just nail polish. This blog has been very therapeutic to me. It has given me a platform where I feel comfortable being genuinely myself with others. I have a freedom in this blog that I do not feel in another areas of my life outside of my close family and my boyfriend. I also feel most confident with my blog, especially when I do these "Talk It Out Tuesday" posts. I feel good about posting my feelings on issues, challenges, insecurities with myself and others. I feel like I have a voice on my blog, a voice that gets drowned out in a crowd often, but here it's heard. It's appreciated and welcomed here. That is an amazing feeling. A lot of my posts seeking support or talking about insecurities have been so helpful to me, and it has been immensely rewarding to find out they are helpful to others too.
I've been an outcast most of my life. I've never felt like I fit in really anywhere. I still don't! I don't mean that in bad way either, I'm coming to terms with my uniqueness! I'm finding out I don't really need to fit in anywhere in particular. Growing up this was hard though. I felt very invisible at many times in life.I'm introverted and complex person. I'm not the easiest person to get to know, and I internalize a lot. I have a whirlwind of thoughts, opinions, and ideas at any given moment. I'm an idealist who likes to try and fix things, find the opportunity in things, and make everyone happy. I like to see people succeed. I like to make people feel welcome and appreciated.
Outwardly, no one would probably know these things about me, but with this blog I get to share this side of me. I'm not really a great speaker or conversationalist, but through writing I can say it all. I can share it all. That's why I wanted this blog not just be for me but for my readers as well. This is why I have the "Share With You Sunday" posts. I want to feature other people regardless of their skill, talent, blogger/non blogger, and etc. I know how much it means to me when people take time to recognize and appreciate me. It feels good, and I want to make my readers feel special. You are special to me, and I never want anyone to feel invisible here or unappreciated. I'm know I'm not the best at replying to comments all the time, but if you email me I will always write back to you!
I think what I'm trying to say is while I love nail polish, this blog is so much less about nail polish than it is an personal journey of expressing myself to others, allowing others to share in my experience, and connecting with people. I could do the same thing if I was into gummy worms, telescopes, or pumpkin carving. Nail polish is just what I love, and it gave me the platform to open myself up to people. I hope this makes sense. I'll never stray away from nail polish in case your wondering. I love it too much, and I'll always blog about it! It's too fun not to.
I think this is why a lot of other blogs and other bloggers goals have always made me feel so insecure. I think my blog and the purpose of my blog is very different from others. I don't have any professional goals with my blog as far the beauty industry goes. I don't want to big reviewer for PR companies. I'm not a guru. I don't want try and figure out how to make my blog appeal to x,y, and z. I don't care how many page views it gets. This blog is way too personal to me for me to change or improve upon unless it's under my terms. I'll never go around and ask what people think about my blog, changes, improvements etc? My space. I like it the way it is!
My biggest break is that you all like this too. I did not have to do anything fancy, special, over the top, or out of my way for you all to enjoy what I share with you. I am so thankful for all of you who read this blog. It means so much to me. It's is so amazing that this blog has given me the voice and confidence I never could of ever imagined I could have had as a child and teenager. It feels so good to be heard and appreciated, and I only hope I provide the same for you all as well. So, many many genuine thanks to you all for your kindness and support.