After a handful of my favorite long-term bloggers stopped blogging last year I was really bummed out. I also didn't see myself in this position in the foreseable future at that time, but I too now am also at that point. I knew this was coming in recent months as I prefaced in my 7 year anniversary post, but it's been very difficult to accept.
Blogging has not been something I have been passionate about for years. I have been behind the curve for years too with the introduction of indies. What was a small and easy to follow hobby for me became saturated with hundreds of brands that turned into brain overload for me. I could never keep up and the price of trying to keep up was the initial joy I found in this hobby. It became a chore to feel like I needed to be on top of my game which isn't why I got into this initially. The competitiveness and the pettiness of this community also consumed me to the point of extreme self-doubt and insecurity that I had not experienced since I was in middle school. Despite that I prevailed through it, to try to remain true to myself and try to reignite the love I first had for it all.
I feel like the past few years I've been hanging on either trying to find that love again or out of guilt because of the years I've been so committed to this. When I started to develop a career plan to be a feline behaviorist and develop The Fulfilled Feline blog this became less than secondary. It felt great to be passionate about something again and in way that makes a difference which has always been my life's goal.
I initially thought that maybe nail blogging would be better and true outlet for me now that I had something greater in my life. After a few months, I realize it's a hinderance and a lot of it is out of guilt. I don't have the desire to blog anymore at least for right now. The guilt I have with trying to maintain this blog has interfered with my focus on The Fulfilled Feline. I wish I could do both happily, but as long as nail blogging feels like it's something I have to do and is out of guilt then what's the point?
This has been very hard for me to swallow and I've been fighting in my head over it for several weeks. I still do love nail polish. You probably won't ever see me not wearing it! I just don't have the desire to blog about it. I'm still wondering if that will change? That's why I'm not sure if this is a break up or just a break? I don't want to set myself up and call it a hiatus, so I'm not sure if this is my last post or not? Time will tell.
I want to thank all of you who have been supportive of me and this blog. Your encouragement has meant the world to me and I appreciate the friendships that have formed from this. As much as I am facing truths about how I feel about blogging right now, I do hope they change. I want to feel differently and I truly want to enjoy it again. I can't force that though so hopefully it will come back.
In the meantime. If you're a cat lover feel free to follow me on The Fulfilled Feline blog, FB page, and Instagram. I update my social media channels daily and my blog twice a week.