If you have been following my little guest posts, you know 2013 was a tough year for me. I went through many trials to test my resolution, and yet I am still here.
This means one of two things:
1-God is proving to me that I am stronger than I give myself credit for.
2-I am just too stubborn to give up! Think about it. If I give up on myself, who is going to fight for me??
One thing that has become a problem is, my OCD has been acting up. Dealing with insurance companies over my wrecks, getting the flu which led to pneumonia, missing my family over the holidays, working a very stressful job, and trying to be super mommy has wiped me out! A big reason I have spent the past two blog posts going down memory lane is, my nails and cuticles are hot messes. I have been picking at them again. I am ashamed. They look horrible.
I decided to go to my doctor and ask to change up my antidepressants. He put me on a new medication that seems to be working fairly well, however there is a very unusual side effect. I have always had lucid dreams due to me having narcolepsy, but this medication has stirred up some really insane dreams!
Lucid dreams are very vivid dreams where the dreamer slowly realizes they are awake inside the dream, but your body is paralyzed. You can't make your body wake up, yet you are awake inside a very real freakshow in your mind. They are so real that I thought I was actually going insane before I realized I was awake in a nightmare.
So, what do I do?? I make a nail polish based on these lucid dreams! These pics show two dabbed coats of Lucid Dreams over a basic black creme, with a coat of Sally's Gelous as a top coat.
(Intentionally blurred to show sparkle.)
Shine On Reader,
Gorgeous glitter you created!! Its so sparkly and holographic! :DReplyDelete
So pretty and sparkly! Best wishes...ReplyDelete
Very pretty! And remember, the strong ask for medication as needed, and then we get better!! So kudos to you and I wish you the best!ReplyDelete
I love that polish!! I'm glad you are a fighter! This year is going to be better for you I!! Go girl!!ReplyDelete
My nails always look horrible when I'm stressed or depressed too :/ trying to grow them out right now actually. Hope you are feeling better!ReplyDelete
So sparkly! love!ReplyDelete
First of all, gorgeous polish!! Secondly, you have narcolepsy??? Me too!! Girl, no wonder you are tired!! N is genuinely the bane of my existence.ReplyDelete
Yessss!!!! I was diagnosed about 10 years ago. Narco plus working nightshift plus two babies!!! No wonder I need medication!! Lol! I'm glad you like the polish! You know exactly what I am referring to! These dreams are insane!ReplyDelete
Thank you!! I will not stop till my nails look like a disco ball :DReplyDelete
I am starting to feel better. Long story short, once we get all this wreck nonsense behind me, my nails will stop paying the price. :)ReplyDelete
Thank you Tinsnipper. I guess that's why my little girl is so sassy! She gets it from her moma! I must get it from my moma ;) but my moma is much sweeter than I am :DReplyDelete
So true! Thank you so much!!ReplyDelete
Thank you sweet Pink! You are always so kind! I look forward to your comments :)ReplyDelete
One day I will create a polish so holographic people will think I have a hologram of a diamond on my nails! Lol! Fun to dream! ;DReplyDelete
Oh yeah. Thankfully, I don't have them anymore (since I started on Xyrem) but mine were always of some psycho breaking into my apartment to kill me. Fun times. I remember meeting this artsy-fartsy guy once who, when we were saying goodbyes, wished me "lucid dreams." I wanted to slap him :-) And I don't know how you do it with 2 little ones and working night shift! I'm a single mom to a necessarily self-sufficent teenager, poor kid. As soon as I get home from work, it's nap time for Mom. Ugh. I really hate this disease.ReplyDelete
Awww, thanks! :)ReplyDelete
That's why I need the pills and my cuticles look like Freddy CrougerReplyDelete